Shit

I feel shit. Im writing a blog about me yes. Fucking judge.
Why does everyone feel the need to involve themselves in my life?
Fair enough have your opinions but please. You're nobody keep them to yourself.
I really couldn't give a shit anymore. I'm done with pretending i care what you say.
Does nobody ever stop & think what its like the be told a billion different things at once?
The ONE good thing to happen to me in months and you turn it into rubbish. It's not like
i've got a billion things to be happy about is it ?! So you choose to ruin the one thing i had.
Grrr. it's a real shame that you'll read this and again tell me your shitty views about my life...AGAIN.

I told you i had things to sort out in my head before i could even begin to understand what's going on and you still push & push bleh.

Just remember that when you're happy in your sad excuse of a relationship.

Mate you failed

Education in England is the law, right? So why do we have to pay for uni ? Surely England should be encouraging the ''youth of today'' to be who ever they want to be and putting tuition fees to a maximum of £9,000 a year is just... stupid. How can they expect people would be okay with that ? On average it takes 11 years to become a doctor ? Thats like what £99,000 ... IS ALL THAT DEBT worth that job ? I mean i'm seriously not cussing anyone that'd put themselves in that much debt to become a doctor ... i'd just not prefer to be paying of uni debts for the rest of my life. Okay i didn't really want to go to uni but theres always been something in the back of my mind saying i'd enjoy it but now ... i wouldn't ever go to uni. I think the rise in tuition fees will just make people less likey to consider going to university which will in turn lower the amount of Doctors/Nurses/Lawyers... even politions. The debt just isn't worth the job.

Clegg i hope you're happy.

God

Last year i was banned from a Baptist church for simply asking a few questions.

I asked why did people worship someone that let innocent babies die? Good people suffer &
the bad live happily?

He said that 'Satan' did all the bad in the world & god can't always over power him...

Well why cant he beat 'Satan' ? Why does 'Satan' constantly win ? I'm not saying we should all abandon our faiths but has nobody ever thought about it ? Why are we supposed to worship someone that can't over power the bad in life? Maybe 'god' isn't who we're supposed to be worshipping?

Life is to short to be pissed off all the time.

Racists. Facists. Extremists; What's the point?

Life is short; why spread words of hate and racism when we could all get along?
I could never imagine going through my life hating people for no reason especially thier race or culture. I don't get the point! This Terry Jones bullshit about burning Koran; what was he thinking?! The Ignornace of people ammuses me and i know it shouldn't but this fella is old enough to be my grandad... He should have fought against Facists not joined them!!
It really infuriates me to think children are brainwashed into believing this bullshit; Sorry but that's what it is, utter shit. We only live once why be angry all the time? We're all equal, if i can figure it out ANYONE can, fuck man; why would someone want to bring a kid into a world so full of hate...

September 11th 2001
So many good lives taken away because of Extremist views; it didn't need to happen.

Thinking makes me feel bad.

I've been thinking. I've been on this earth for nearly 17 years ... That's nearly 6205 days ... WOW. But yes back to the point i'm trying to make, nearly 17 years and i've made no difference to the world; If i died tomorrow, nobody would miss me. I've done nothing to help anybody, made no impact on anyones life. I want to make people proud of me, i don't want to be just another person... I want to help people, make it a better world for people to live in. I'm not sure how i can achieve my goals i mean giving a quid to a homeless man once and a while is hardly going to change the world ... bt it's a start right? It's not just about charity giving though really, when you think about it money isn't anything. I mean it helps, it doesn't love you though... You can't talk to it about your problems & it wont ever hug you back...
I don't want anybody to ever feel hungry, to ever go without basic necessities.
We're all equal.

I know i'm not superwomen but i can try my best & that's all i can ever do really.

I'm going to tell him; Not yet though. A month or two and i'm going to tell him
how wonderful he really is and how silly i think it is that he's wasting him time pining after his ex because he could do so much better ( no i'm not just saying this because i want him:/ )
He's such a sweetheart. Grrr, it took me a month to properly build up the courage to hug him :/ so yeah building up for the big'un. So yes, Don't rushhhhhh me, i'm doing my best.
Not sure what his take on me is but well ... i'm gunna tell him either way.

NONAMES.:)

This was such a girly blog, no lie.

Today.

Well today i've learnt you can't trust people even your so called friends.
I can trust about 4 people now, That is it. Maybe i'm wrong but honestly ...
I poured my heart out to this so called mate ... little did i know he was sitting next to
the girl who started all this shit. Tbh that was the most embarrassed i've been in so long.
I'm not even going to give them the satisfaction of telling them him how annoyed i am with him.
I can't be bothered with little eejits like that in my life.

Then, a guy who has treated me like crap in the past weeks started talking to me today, for some reason. Ive been to his a few times , stayed (NOTHING happened) . About a week back he asked me to go to his i said no i didn't want to , then he was telling me it was the last time i could spend the night with him because he had a date that weekend. This obviously pissed me the fuck off. so i stopped talking to him for a while but tonight, he didn't think he did anything wrong... he was being flirty telling me how much i love him (i don't) asking me to go to his tonight & have a cuddle in bed with him :/. Either way he clocked he annoyed me, didn't say anything else on the subject of him being a dickhead though.

Gah i'm just not having luck with guys right now, will i ever :/