Underdogs.

Okay i've been meaning to write about this ages.

This subject has pissed me off for many, many years but now... why is it right for Johnny Depp
to be paid 75MILLION to act in 'Pirates of the Carribean' but Live Aid 1985 only raised 40 million? Look how many people Live Aid helped & Johnny Depp made that through a few films! I was talking to a priest the other day and he said it's WRONG to buy 'The Big Issue', they'll only buy beer or drugs. Okay to sell 'The big issue' you HAVE to be clean otherwise you can't officially work for them. It's a fact. Yeah. you say ' give to the big charities' BUT ... HOW is that helping the nice man selling ' the big issue' outside ASDA? How is that making him able to buy dinner? Oh no, wait, it's not. What are the chances of HIM directly being helped ? I'd much rather give him a few quid for a magazine i'll read on my bus home then give it to an actual charity? Now if i had millions to give away (like mr. Depp) i'd definatly give alot to charitys but i'd still give to the lovely man outside ASDA, i'm not sure if this is making any sence but i can't believe people get paid that much to just star in a film or play a football match when people are living on the streets. Fucking gets depressing when you think about it. I don't know anyone that likes being homeless. Some hostals have rules, they wont take people for sexuality or religion? It's horrific to think people are driven to that ammount of poverty and people aren't doing as much as they could. Fuck it; money isn't everything. You don't have to give cash. No, food. Food you're not gunna eat. Tins in your cupboard that you WON'T eat & they'll stay there for months, untouched. Quite a few places collect food for the homeless, soup kitchens do too!
Think what you'd do if you were in their possition?!

Shit

I feel shit. Im writing a blog about me yes. Fucking judge.
Why does everyone feel the need to involve themselves in my life?
Fair enough have your opinions but please. You're nobody keep them to yourself.
I really couldn't give a shit anymore. I'm done with pretending i care what you say.
Does nobody ever stop & think what its like the be told a billion different things at once?
The ONE good thing to happen to me in months and you turn it into rubbish. It's not like
i've got a billion things to be happy about is it ?! So you choose to ruin the one thing i had.
Grrr. it's a real shame that you'll read this and again tell me your shitty views about my life...AGAIN.

I told you i had things to sort out in my head before i could even begin to understand what's going on and you still push & push bleh.

Just remember that when you're happy in your sad excuse of a relationship.

Mate you failed

Education in England is the law, right? So why do we have to pay for uni ? Surely England should be encouraging the ''youth of today'' to be who ever they want to be and putting tuition fees to a maximum of £9,000 a year is just... stupid. How can they expect people would be okay with that ? On average it takes 11 years to become a doctor ? Thats like what £99,000 ... IS ALL THAT DEBT worth that job ? I mean i'm seriously not cussing anyone that'd put themselves in that much debt to become a doctor ... i'd just not prefer to be paying of uni debts for the rest of my life. Okay i didn't really want to go to uni but theres always been something in the back of my mind saying i'd enjoy it but now ... i wouldn't ever go to uni. I think the rise in tuition fees will just make people less likey to consider going to university which will in turn lower the amount of Doctors/Nurses/Lawyers... even politions. The debt just isn't worth the job.

Clegg i hope you're happy.

God

Last year i was banned from a Baptist church for simply asking a few questions.

I asked why did people worship someone that let innocent babies die? Good people suffer &
the bad live happily?

He said that 'Satan' did all the bad in the world & god can't always over power him...

Well why cant he beat 'Satan' ? Why does 'Satan' constantly win ? I'm not saying we should all abandon our faiths but has nobody ever thought about it ? Why are we supposed to worship someone that can't over power the bad in life? Maybe 'god' isn't who we're supposed to be worshipping?

Life is to short to be pissed off all the time.

Racists. Facists. Extremists; What's the point?

Life is short; why spread words of hate and racism when we could all get along?
I could never imagine going through my life hating people for no reason especially thier race or culture. I don't get the point! This Terry Jones bullshit about burning Koran; what was he thinking?! The Ignornace of people ammuses me and i know it shouldn't but this fella is old enough to be my grandad... He should have fought against Facists not joined them!!
It really infuriates me to think children are brainwashed into believing this bullshit; Sorry but that's what it is, utter shit. We only live once why be angry all the time? We're all equal, if i can figure it out ANYONE can, fuck man; why would someone want to bring a kid into a world so full of hate...

September 11th 2001
So many good lives taken away because of Extremist views; it didn't need to happen.

Thinking makes me feel bad.

I've been thinking. I've been on this earth for nearly 17 years ... That's nearly 6205 days ... WOW. But yes back to the point i'm trying to make, nearly 17 years and i've made no difference to the world; If i died tomorrow, nobody would miss me. I've done nothing to help anybody, made no impact on anyones life. I want to make people proud of me, i don't want to be just another person... I want to help people, make it a better world for people to live in. I'm not sure how i can achieve my goals i mean giving a quid to a homeless man once and a while is hardly going to change the world ... bt it's a start right? It's not just about charity giving though really, when you think about it money isn't anything. I mean it helps, it doesn't love you though... You can't talk to it about your problems & it wont ever hug you back...
I don't want anybody to ever feel hungry, to ever go without basic necessities.
We're all equal.

I know i'm not superwomen but i can try my best & that's all i can ever do really.

I'm going to tell him; Not yet though. A month or two and i'm going to tell him
how wonderful he really is and how silly i think it is that he's wasting him time pining after his ex because he could do so much better ( no i'm not just saying this because i want him:/ )
He's such a sweetheart. Grrr, it took me a month to properly build up the courage to hug him :/ so yeah building up for the big'un. So yes, Don't rushhhhhh me, i'm doing my best.
Not sure what his take on me is but well ... i'm gunna tell him either way.

NONAMES.:)

This was such a girly blog, no lie.

Today.

Well today i've learnt you can't trust people even your so called friends.
I can trust about 4 people now, That is it. Maybe i'm wrong but honestly ...
I poured my heart out to this so called mate ... little did i know he was sitting next to
the girl who started all this shit. Tbh that was the most embarrassed i've been in so long.
I'm not even going to give them the satisfaction of telling them him how annoyed i am with him.
I can't be bothered with little eejits like that in my life.

Then, a guy who has treated me like crap in the past weeks started talking to me today, for some reason. Ive been to his a few times , stayed (NOTHING happened) . About a week back he asked me to go to his i said no i didn't want to , then he was telling me it was the last time i could spend the night with him because he had a date that weekend. This obviously pissed me the fuck off. so i stopped talking to him for a while but tonight, he didn't think he did anything wrong... he was being flirty telling me how much i love him (i don't) asking me to go to his tonight & have a cuddle in bed with him :/. Either way he clocked he annoyed me, didn't say anything else on the subject of him being a dickhead though.

Gah i'm just not having luck with guys right now, will i ever :/

Katie, you have got the be the most patronising person i have ever known, shame it doesn't actually work because, well im not being funny but your so childish its unbelievable involving yourself in something you have NOTHING to do with....

'' Oh man they don't know abuse if they think thats abuse! No, it was a simple kick up the arse to remind then that when they enter the real world and become adults they can't go around doing shit like that. ''

- What your saying is abuse, doesn't effect me in the slightest but it is abuse. How many times do you need to mention i'm a few years younger then you ? Does it make you feel better about your own navety ? Shit like what ? What have i actually done apart from prove to your brother he can't get away with treating girls the way he treated me, Aislinn & Zoe.

''TBH, i've seen what was said by my brother but not by the girls; i wonder why that is, eh?!? Pah hah. As if you think they didn't say stuff back''

- So you've seen the inappropraite comments made to me by your brother? The creepy not even flirting comments. The reason why you haven't seen what i wrote back to him is because i don't save my chats... I would never lead anybody on, what would have been the point? I didn't even like his as a person let alone for his body mate.

'' Only reason i called them chilish is because they ARE children. Again, you can't go doing that in the real world. Perhaps they-and you- will realise this when you leave the big bad world of school and getting pissed at gigs. Yup, We all have to grow up sometimes. (Trust me, i seriously rebelled against growing up and i SO didn't want to turn 18!)''

- Okay, well... I left school many, many years ago so i don't really remember the '' big bad world of school . You seem to think you know me pretty well... how ? Unless you've saved my facebook on to your favourites i don't know how you could possibly begin to know me ....

Look i really don't care if thier still together or what, I did what was right whether you agree or not its done. You will definitely rocognise me in future but i still have no clue who you are or what you look like so allow yourself from looking at me when were at the same gigs.

That is all.

Im a whore.

I'm a whore, aparently.



It's so funny how i get perved on and im the whore just because i wouldn't have sex with him.

Adam had a girlfriend, he and i had met at gigs, hardly spoke but he found my msn on facebook, added me & started talking i didnt want to be rude so i replied. He got creepy VERY quickly saying the weirdest things '' Would me and you ever get together'' & ''Want me to go on cam to you naked''... Now i didn't ever lead him on i told him straight up i didn't fancy him in ANY way. I avoided him for a while, then we staretd talking again ... Got creepier... So i told him '' Dude you have a girlfriend, the way your speaking to me isn't right. Either dump Your girlfriend and carry on talking to girls like thier shit OR treat your girl right and leave other girls alone''. We then got into a massive argument, aparently guys always talk to girls like that :/ URM ive never known a guy to talk to a girl like that and get her.... i mean ive known guys to get a slap for talking like that.



To make a long story short. I told his girlfriend. She had to know. If my boyfriend was doing that to other girls i'd want to know straight away...

Yet it got turned on me i led him on :/ ? No i didn't. Ive had enough of silly people trying to make me out to be the bad guy, why would i want him?

So now on facebook ive had his silly sister getting involved in everything i do, WHAT IS IT TO HER? I wouldn't know this girl if she fell on me yet she thinks she knows me, i mean she seems to love discribing me '' whore, slag'' oh and a tosspot? She called me a stupid child yet she calls me a tosspot HA. So me and Aislinn are both childish, mindless little girls yet she tries to be all patronising, i mean i don't honestly give a shit but its pathetic... Ive lost friends because of this, Actual mates.



If anyone believes what i did was wrong well then thats your view but allow stalking my facebook and making a big show about it, i did what i KNOW is right.

Eurgh.

Is it just me or are more and more men think with thier dicks?
In the past two weeks ive been treated like some... slut. I'm really not but
wow some guys really expect me to do as they say... Your fit, i am not about to
lower my standards just to make you happy. Im not like that, i hate girls that do that, most men now expect women to be... easy otherwise thier frigid. Sillyness.
You compliment me , doesn't mean im about to jump into bed with you mate
Grow the fuck up and start acting like a REAL man

Fuck

I can't help but feel slightly pushed out by some of my friends, i love them all dearly but
since a centain person has found an ''other half'' im out of the picture. We hardly go out, when
we talk its only for a while then the convo goes dead :/ It never did before, talk for hours...
about everything and anything. I would never stop loving that person (P) But its hard. Ive just lost a boyfriend and im not asking for pity but im used to having someone to talk about shit to :/
i don't have that ... Everyones paired off and P and i were so close :/ Gah hopefully this will change soon, new relationships n'all ...

Against All Odds.

Against All Odds, the girl that had no GCSE's no qualifications... Got into college.
So fuck all you people that said i was too shit to achieve anything, what can you say now ?
I prooved you ALL wrong. HAHAA !!

:')

For Hassan And Adam

Hassan your ma main mann! I wuvv youu :)

Adaaaaaaaaammm issss cominnnn too towwwwwwn! BOOM
Eeeeee cant wait to see you and find a cheapo coffe shop to get
MARRIED in yes, married. Eeeek fun times aheadd :D

Gah

Hmm this is going to turn into such a girl post BUT;;

Im baffled. I like two guys, There both amazing but
One lives so far away and hes lovely :/ it just wouldnt work
and the other ... Hes not over his ex we will call him M.
M and i haven't known eachother for long but we talk enough,
he is such a lovely guy and such a laugh and not bad looking, not that
im mad shallow :S ha. He listens , you know ? Im not claiming i love him far
from it but he is really this great :)...
The other We will call him C .... He lives in Milton Keynes, Very far...
But hes such a gent and such a cutie :) ....
Maybe im just wasting my time with these guys ? I dont know. Im just gah.
I dont want to spend forever wanting them and nothing to happen ...
I dont want to be one of those girls.... Maybe in a week or two i will have a clearer
idea of what is happening. Until then ...

Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

I want MY FAMILY back.

We used to be this tight family and now ... were not. Its awkward as hell.
I feel bad for talking to certain people ... Gah. My (real) family life has not been the
best and well , i see my friends as family ... i want us to ALL be able to go to a gig or something
and have a nice time not dirty looks and half of us off in other places.

Gah i just want my family back. Please sort this out like adults.
I love you all.

EDL

English Defence League?

What a pile of shit. I am 16 years old and i KNOW everyone who lives in England
is not ''Full English'' , I'm not. Its Pathetic what these people are doing, A few years
ago a thing called the recession happened, hence no jobs for you thick idiots. Deal with it.
Nobody in thier right mind would employ somone who has a criminal record or anything like that, when they could easily get someone who's qualified. EDL are just looking for somone
to blame for their lack of benefits, Maybe they should look at their Government? Funny how Gordon Brown never had EDL waiting to Fuck him up, yet Muslims do.


Scum.

Goodbye.

Okay this proberly is abit Emo, But this needs to be done.

Nick, you honestly treated me like i was nothing to you. Yeah there were times when you were lovely as anything. I don't hate you for ending it, I'm just hurt that it's now to the point we arn't even friends but i don't know ... You kept posting childish Facebook status's and they hurt.ALOT. We've been through so much i cant hate you, i wish i could because it'd be so much easier then missing you. I really do miss you and i do love you but i dont think we could have lasted much longer, i just was'nt what you wanted i know that now. I just want you to know that this is it. I don't want to be one of those girls who's with an arsehole and her friends hate him. I now see why they hated you so much and i cant believe i was with you after everything you did :/ Gah.

This is it, Goodbye.



.P.S. Hassan is sick SNM.

Hassan

Youve been there for me, EVERYTIME I needed someone, Its always you :L.
I drag you around shitty stores and make you come to my house at crazy times, ooops.
But i do love you fam. NOW MAKE ME SOME TEAAA xx

Grr.

It amazes me how nieve people can be, England is and ALWAYS Has been a multicultural country. NO ONE Is fully english, no matter how much you try and say you are its bullshit.
Im so sick of this '' English jobs for english people'' . Okay like let me explain what i mean here ;;
These People that come over here and apparently TAKEYOURJOBS were probs actually born here and finished school and collage And have qualifications. Oh and the beloved flag you lot seem to fly everywhere is also the flag that the BNP And EDL use to promote there racist/facist views so i think everyone should be a little more understanding.

17th may

Im actually shitting it for Wednesday, I have a collage interview. WHATAMIMENTTOEVENSAY!? Im Ellen i wont kill you if you let me in you Collage ?!
Gah guess im just going to have to do my best :/. OH AND To top this all off ive been so fucking bored, Everyone i know is all worried abotu exams and stuff :(
Although i think ive now sorted my life out and im now starting to get regular tattoos which is all good n'all because MONEYSSSS Ya'get me haha

I Really Fancied A Rant.

I dont go to school. Haven't done in two or three years. Im NOT Stupid & Im sick of people thinking i am. So ive finally plucked up the courage to apply for collage and STILL People are making comments of me being stupid. I mean ive only applied to collage to prove to people i can do it ...

Now when i prove you ALL WRONG Feel free to all chip in and buy me a house or a car i dont mind.

Friday/Saturday

I haven't writen on here in two days, so i shall now bore you of my events of the last 48 hours.

Friday 14th;
I split up with my boyfriend of a year, It just wasn't working. Drowned my sorrows in Tea.

Saturday 15th;
There was ment to be an amazing Protest in parliament square, Turned up ... NOTHING BUT A BUNCH OF HIPPIES!!! I hate facebook events. OH And i finally have my Mohican back (THANKFUCK)


Honestly got bollox else to say right now, My brain is moosh.